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Jb with Momsy

2012-02-10T11:47:00.002+08:00

An adventurous day at JB with my mom yesterday. From angsana, we went to find the way to JOP by ourselves and of course with some help from the pakcik/ makcik! despite the unfamiliar routes and names, We finally made our way there without getting lost!

Can't wait for more free time. I'll be driving around with my mom once I get my license! InsYallah :)

dunkin donuts!

three cheers for my mom. we found our way here!

my mother :)

so shiok until can drive with one hand only!

crackers!

Last day of school

2012-02-10T11:43:00.003+08:00

the last few weeks when i said , i had 3 more freaking weeks in rp and the last 2 days was already my last.Sadly, it has come to an end. Well it has not officially ended since UT is not over yet.But technically, if there's no more lesson means there's no more school right?

can you belive it, there goes my 3 years of my tertiary education. stepped into rp with my geeky looks, damn timid and err so fair. and now im leaving rp with slightly looking better, tan skin and full of pride because no matter how bad people think about my school, i am still proud being in rp! if you dont know, from the last rank , we managed to pull up and to the second place now!

in this 3 years, i have seen so much changes in myself. besides my physical looks(haha!) but my behaviour as well. RP taught me to be independant and be more responsible towards my own studies! we were'nt spoon feed with information on what we are learning, no textbooks, no lecture notes so practically we have to do our own reasearch! the more research u have, the more u learn.

i find myself as a stronger girl now. i dont know how i managed to juggle my emotions when i encountered problems with my fyp and studies and then comes the biggest competition of the year but i did it. if i wasnt in rp and never challenge myself to join db. i would never know where my limits can expand till.

my journey in RP has left so much of the best memories and gave me the best of friends i would keep till i die.

ill miss so many things i did in RP. ill miss the nerve wrecking moments i had before presentations. the stressness, the break out period, first meeting, second and the third and 6p!! ill miss ayam bakar!! the bubble tea and my potato salads as well! :( my favourite spot in school where i had so much of the bitter sweet times at, the sports complex! where i spend most of my time suffering, crying and train till i almost die with the girls. the pharm lab for fyp, blasting songs, break a spatula, carried the heaviest equipment, made too much smelly pellets.

and i must thank RP for showing me how capable i am at scraping through pharm chem lessons even when i thought i couldnt but i did it at last.

i am gonna be free from my poly life soon!!!!

the last day in school was somewhat the day all of us had been waiting for. but when ma zhen ended her 6p, it was kind of sad to know everything has ended.

my Y3S3 classmates!

this girl below is my year 1 classmate and now year 3! and she keep saying how she see me grew.


my two favorite girls in class!

and then comes the madness we had in the aerobic room after gymming with my favourite girls. These girls are the best girls i can ever have! it all started with vivi wanted to pretend to have a photoshoot of an old school theme. had so much fun with them after so damn long!!

my sibling!!

nazimoomoo :)

this photo made us roll on the floor laughing!!

love these girls!!

vanthewee :)

we look some some trainers here right!! haha

love this !!

2012-01-30T23:04:00.002+08:00

i realized on this day, it was the last three trainings i had left in school before study week kicks in and then comes the final exam! and ah mao turned 16 again this year because she is sixteen forever. haha! happy birthday ah mao <3

AH MAO :)

then comes sunday where i decided to just clean up the mess in my room. when it comes to torough cleaning, ill definitely end up opening up my special box which filled with really cute stuffs i collected through out my entire 20 years of living. those letters i got from my friends, teachers and the small gift made for me. then now the things got accumulaed and the small box cant hold on to my stuffs anymore that i got to transfer it into a bigger box.

it's another brand new week in school. 3 more lessons and i am done with rp. cherie said we looked like power puff girls because coincidentally, zoa was wearing green, i wore red and she wore blue.

just like this :

after school, satisfy my cravings for chong pang's mee soto!! look!! so yummy!!

and now im currently addicted to this game!!!!

my chinese new year

2012-01-25T15:54:00.010+08:00

i have always love Chinese year. apart from the ang pao's that i received from my mom's customer, there is this specialty of the new year that made me feel like im celebrating it too. i grew up helping my mom since i was seven and now that im turning 20 , that makes 13 years of my life going through the same thing on every new year. ill be looking forward to reach the kitchen at the back of the house, hoping to see if aunty Ros was there, and when i see her busy cooking then i feel, this new year will be good. she saw growing up from my nerdy days when i was still had my specs on and at that moment, i didn't had to look down whenever i talk to her because we were standing at the same height.But now, i am so much taller that she had to say the same line again and again every year. " you're growing up too fast, so tall and im already aging."

sigh im getting old too you know.

but every year, i wished i could spend every morning of my new year there. i don't care if i would have to help my mom till i'm married. but that what makes my new year a fruitful one.

then ill be heading to aunty Mabel's house. she used to live in a very old houses but she had to shift since the government wanted to rebuild her old place. and now she's here at the 19th story. cant help it but to snap this beautiful scenery!

and if you're wondering what i do whenever i say ill be helping my mom. is to put the satay sticks on the burner like this!

looks damn yummy right ;D

gong xi fa cai to my chinese friends!

hapi twenty my bf!

2012-01-20T18:32:00.000+08:00

knowing that i had school + training yesterday. bluffed the birthday girl and told her that i couldn't meet her but secretly planned out a surprise with iira! narisah, hafiz and myself were behind the scene preparing the cake, thinking at the very last minute on what we had to do.. but thank god! the surprise worked out.hope u like it bazilah :) happy 20!! the first in the clique to turn a year older!

i have never though this friendship could last us till now but trust me, having to know u is the greatest gift of all. those memories we had back in our primary school days then to secondary. those were the best time of my life with you. we should get back to the admiralty bridge one day! ill buy you the honey dew drink that u like to drink ok. but first, you have to find time for me!

this year, you've got whole cake all for yourself baz!

happy birthday baz <3

love this pic!

aziz look like scary here!! haha

love u baz!

i fcking lost my ez link card!!!!

2012-01-20T16:29:00.003+08:00

i lost my ez link again. the first was stolen in the train, some idiot thought a small elmo purse would have tons of money in it and stupidly took it. and now...i lost it in a split second. i don't know whether it got stolen, or i dropped it somewhere.A fucking tranny just happened to screw my life at that point of time, got so blurred and i have never felt so helpless before. the tranny was fucking ugly that i was trembling so bad when he/she looked at me. i felt like that i was gotten under some spell that i stupidly followed what she/he told me to do. couldnt actually remember what happened next but i knew i didnt cared about my card, where i last hold it and the next day when i was rushing to school for training, i realised it was gone. but thank god, there were 4+ bucks left inside.

whats makes me so frustrated is that i am too dependent on it. how the hell will i get myself to everywhere i want to go without it! plus i love it so much since it's orange in colour and my pic doesnt look that ugly. i spend 4 years in adss, not having to remake my ez link card at all, but lost twice in poly. urghh!!! i am so angry, i feel like killing that tranny that got me so traumatized that i forgotten where did i last placed my ez link card at :/

screw u tranny!!!!

and to add up to the shit im having now. the ut3 dates are out and look at this:

med tech and pharm chem on the same day!!! are u kidding me rp. URGH!!!

its fucking over.

2012-01-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

i can never put it in words on how im feeling right now. but ive got to tell you guys, that since everything is over now. everything seems to be in place and i woke up today with relief and i want to thank god for blessing us all with a smooth presentations we had yesterday. alhamdullilah :)

i had a nerve wrecking moments. no matter how many times i read the script that i prepared. remembering in details of why certain chemicals have to be added in, why this reaction occurs, what we did that causes contamination and blahblahblah. i knew everything. but the things just got blank whenever i did my own dry run and that sucks because i was worried i might just screws up the whole thing. but thank god again, i didnt! truthfully, despite the countless of times i had my presentations in RP and the crutial one last sem. This got to be the one and only presentation that i am most nervous for! the 5 minutes in each presentations that i had, explaining my parts, my palms went wet, my legs were shaky and even worst, i perspired in an air-conditioned room!

But i guess i did well!!! and my teammates too :) from the first presentations to the last(WE HAD TO PRESENT 5 TIMES!!). ive got to agree with cherie that our level of confidence grew as the number of presentations we had became lesser. we just so relax especially when my year 1 MCB facil were our second last invigilator. the best thing was that, she still remembers me. im so glad she did because i liked her so much! she's so hip like that, with the boots and that rock chick style.

and so , when the last invigilator says thank you. the four of us were like... OMGGG YAYYYY!!! THIS IS THE MOMENT WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR . see-ing our thick logbook and compared it to my friend's.I've got to agree with one of the ingivilator that said we did ALOT. ALOT IS so vague. if my friends had to work till the hill. we worked till we reached the mountain. haha.

good job girls. am so proud of us. we totally deserve nothing else but the best. so lets leave the rest to god to decide on our grades :) and hopefully, it will be good :) amin!

2012-01-13T00:59:00.003+08:00

and when satuday comes, it will all come to an end. im gonna miss so many things. That of course includes, our usual walkathon to the 903 bus stop, every evening,passing through the admiralty park while enjoying the beautiful sight of the sunset. blasting songs like we fcking own the lab. and to add one to the "good times" tgether. we even stayed out the whole night to fcking complete our report. it just amaze me on how the four of us can still manage to pull through this rough times despite being extremely tired .and at the end of the day, i could still see the smiles pasted on our shag faces pretending we're fine but deep down, we knew we're not.

the past few months had been a hell shit of a roller coaster ride. so damn tough, sometimes, mind-blowing and waking up each day with fear and almost worried like fug. year 3 is no joke. i swear it is worst than having those hardcore mugging session for o levels.

for the bitter sweet times, i can never thank you girls enough for having me!! and to take care of me like a little sissy(since i am the only 1992 girl. hehe!). for always giving in and listen to my rumblings whenever i get cranky and understand me so well, that when i start to spout nonsense on twitter, you guys know that i am fucking hungry. to capture the unglam but yet funny moments when we are together.

and to min, whom had been constantly helping me out. knowing that i can b very blur at times. i love you for always making me laugh so hard and gets crazy with me all the time despite being a year older :P

and to my lover,cherie loh mai kai. HEHE. for i dont know what thing should i thank u, cos if i could list them all out. it woudnt end.

and to zoa chan my twinnie, for tolerating with my nonsense and always telling me what to do when things get out of hand in the lab!!!

i tell you, the view at admiralty park is magnifient! with an excellent photographing skills by my friends*ehemz* and by using the most perfect application in iphone. we're able to capture this beatiful scenery that we always walk at!

and im finally bidding goodbye to my bunwater paddle on tuesday. thank u for having me as ur owner!! ill deinitely miss using you :( and now i have to get use to looking for 29 insted of 4 :(

i shall make a move, driving later. ut afterwards.. may allah bless me! amin!!

thank u youuu for popping out each time when i wish u could have to. for asking me if i was fine whenever u see my tweets and keeping me company on that very day ;D

2012-01-10T15:24:00.003+08:00

Omg I'm totally losing track of my time here. Been busy as always. Just to update something before this site gets rusty.

angel and mortal reveal on 2 jan with my db girls. just a day before school starts!

we took 20 polaroids!

cant post all 20 but i love this!

and this too!


so guys, my angel whom has been secretly giving me extra love and sending out this letters to me is my partner!! so blessed!! i love u partner!!

the day when we were doing our fyp logbook till night in school and min decided to bring us to her IG music studio! i get my fingers laid on the drums! i wish i could play though. hehe

my two very good friends in poly since year 1!

and i shall end this post with a pic of my little brother in his new school uniform!! love amsyar and amirul equally!!

resolutions.

2012-01-01T23:54:00.001+08:00

Truthfully, i never find any importance of having any resolutions. last year, i wanted to get a boyfriend, but i never did. i wanted good results, but it wasnt that good that i am most satisfied with. i wanted to get rich but every week i would think of ways of how not to overspend with things. Unfortunately, by friday, ill b the poorest kid on earth.

here comes 2012, another brand new year. i dont feel that much excitement to begin another year. i dont know what i really want and i dont plan to have any resolutions to follow yet. but living a life without plans and desires is as good as dont need to live because you're so aimless. you're not working towards something that satisfies you. i would remain to be the same person i was a year ago and that will be boring right.

well,i guess, i have think a few.

so year 2012 : be more lovable. more discipline. more adventurous and more stronger. love more, hate less. speak less and think/do more. work harder and expect lesser. get a diploma.license.

happy new year everyone. may god bless us all with good life and happiness as for this year will b a good one, insyallah :)

my everyday wish.

have to!!

a must!

if i am strong. then i have to be stronger, for there will be more challenges i have to face!

need this the most.

something i wish for:

best memories 2011

2012-01-01T23:44:00.001+08:00

you know there is this hash tags in twitter like.. #bestmemoriesof2011

2011 has been harsh on me. it felt like i went through a year of war with so many challenges to fight. from school to dragon boat to family to the matter of my poor heart. everything seems to hit me real hard. but looking back at those days when i cry myself to sleep, waking up each morning with a heavy heart and wish things could get better but it never did. i realized all this major things made me who i am today, perhaps i grew stronger mentally. i can never imagine how i managed to pull through all this with such pain and so much tolerance.

was talking to indra yesterday.. and he asked me this:

i wouldn't want to rewind back to my 2011 days but no doubt, polite was the best thing that happened to me in 2011.the whole scene, on polite day, i wish i can replay it again and again. i can never express in words how great it felt but the feeling was priceless. the days when we shed tears and pushed ourselves till our limits. nobody knew how it felt. the pressure that we get. the stress that we had. the moment we crossed the finishing line, it felt like the time paused for us.

going through the days before polite was bad... so bad... each training was like hell. with the fyp load on my shoulder, with expectations to reach for training, with school each day. if i was'nt strong enough, i could have collapsed but i never did

db had taught me so much of the never say die spirit and taught me to be strong( well i guess, this must be the reason why im standing still. haha). i have never regret a day of Joining dragon boat. i can still remember how it was ,back in those days when training was about punishment and endless running. stayed on though i didnt get that much opportunity to be in the boat when i was in year 1. lost a few clique of friends. but so glad to be the last 5 standing.

Coincidentally we were standing at the same order! :)

thank u girls <3

2011-12-25T23:09:00.001+08:00

there is a point of time in my life where the light reaches the darkness and i cannot chase the darkness away.
i couldnt reach out my hand to hold on to the things i need. My mind is so messy.

I need to see the sunshine after the rain. I know, at the end of the road , everything's going to be just fine and worth it. But this is so damn tiring :(

Happy boxing day . I'm spending it with FYp yet again . Life sucks.

Thank u angel

2011-12-18T21:00:00.001+08:00

So thoughtful of my angel :) your letter win all the small gifts that u secretly placed in my bag.

I really should feel blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. Sometimes I feel like I think too much in finding my own happiness and someone that could make me feel happy . Well the someone im referring here is obviously finding a guy of my own. I took granted of the people around me that really made an effort to make me smile and helped to pick myself up when i was really down. I can never pull through this hard times if not for these girls whom will instantly text me whenever I tweeted something sad. Or just spend the whole night Knocking some sense into my head or just be there listening to what my heart had to say.

To my best friends , good friends and my Rpdb girls whom had been here for me. Thank u !!! Hahaha

Anyway,i just got home from school ! Report due in 4 days !! And we have lots of shits to do still. I can foresee tiring days ahead. So angel, do leave me a message to remind me to stay strong ok :)

i am back!

2011-12-17T00:42:00.001+08:00

i have to just let it go. i have been repeatedly went through the cycle again and again that sometimes , i felt so damn stupid for letting in this feeling and letting it controls over my whole mind. i have been dying to continuously finding and hoping that i will find mine soon that now, i felt so damn tired of wanting too hard.

I am really going to forget about the heartache that is causing so much pain in my life right now. i know i dont deserved to go through this and wish for a better future with someone who dont get tired of chasing me and not the otherwise.

the past 4 years hasnt been good on my side. you've got someone and im still stuck on a loosing end. sometimes, i really wonder how can i even hold on to this feeling for this long. Ure one lucky guy...And it is such a shame that i know i can find better but i just dont want to.i am just hoping to bump into a very nice guy whom will give me shivers and make me tremble by his presence like i always do whenever you're near me.

god totally answered my prayers and to only him i seek guidance and patience. from today onwards, i will open up myself. yes i will!

now that i felt so damn good to just let it off my chest, i am the happy girl like i have always been.YAY.because now, i dont really give a fug even if you dont reply me. You would'nt know how happy i am knowing that i am a threat in someone's life.still feeling insecure. yes? no? haha!!

life has been pretty much ups and down. you should what were the pitfalls that i had to face.The matter of my heart, fyp, UTs, school. ahhhh.. just cant wait to leave rp soon. Anyway, JD assures us that training would be quite light for this month, now that the season is over but the excercises we did in school freaking kills me! i feel like a nineteen year old girl stuck in a 90 year old body everytime training ended. my body ache so badly that i had a hard time taking off my clothes.

cant get to sleep.browsing through my eyecandy's fb profile and i find his friend looks quite good. hmmm. haha. So in 8 hours time, ill be at LSR paddling. if you happened to be in the train passing by the reservouir. wave at me though i wont be able to see. haha.

jangan lupe solat! good night!

a broken heart yet again

2011-12-13T11:34:00.000+08:00

all i want to do is to pick you up from my memories and make you, us real again.And all i want to tell you is that i miss you so much. but i guess, it is really impossible now.

even after so long, i know i have to get over him but i wish i dont have to because it is the last thing i want to do. the sad part is that, you arent even mine to began with but i am just afraid of losing you.

i am stupid , am i? a single text and the conversations we had, even when it was a short one. it build up wild hopes which was only a dream.

i was just so damn wrong about everything.

Eightwelve

2011-12-10T00:37:00.003+08:00

The long awaited eightwelve have just passed. I am nineteen . A year closer to twenty and I am totally not prepared to face the another stage of life just yet.

Anyway thank you so much to my friends and families for giving me the best time ever!! From the well wishes to the presents and cakes,the celebrations and the birthday songs. The yearly birthday dinner over at carousel (for this year), the surprise birthday cupcake. Ahhh I'm truly blessed :) and lastly Thank you Allah for giving me chance to celebrate another year of living and letting me live on to breath the fresh air every morning.

Alhamdulillah :)

Ps: I'm updating through my iPhone :)

2011-12-07T13:01:00.002+08:00

a single text from you made me smile the whole night. made my heart flutters. made me shiver. made me miss you more.the 4 years ago feeling is returning. HELP!

ps : Don't blame me for the hurt youre feeling right now. i waited and i got tired.

belated 22.11

2011-12-06T11:17:00.001+08:00

like i always do. a post just for you.

if you remember me writing about how i felt a year ago. we were so busy with our own things and then two years ago, i said that i was afraid i took things for granted and was afraid to lose you because we were so busy with our life that i dont stop for a little while to send you a simple text to tell you that i misses you.

from the moment we went to our separate routes, when my everyday life were'nt really revolving around you, so many things has changed. we were busy with our new things. we have new friends. from see-ing you everyday, we only get to meet once in a month. But somehow, after two years, slowly things changed and im glad it did.

do you realize we've been meeting up so often now. impromptu dinner, movies and now we're starting to do random things like we used to do again. even if it was for a short while. every minute with you was definitely worthwhile. truthfully, i love how we are now.

this had been in my draft for quite sometime, ust wanna wait for the pictures!!

happy 19th to my bestfriend . thank god for you in my life. lets grow old together. and i hope one day, you will find your true love(cos it will definitely come!)

went fika with the usual cliques only that bazilah couldn't oin us since A levels was still on(but yay it ended ald!!) and narisah came. nice food. failed surprise. but really had a wonderful evening.

ahhh we're growing old :(

xoxo! love you cece, kuku(hehe!)

2011-12-05T00:39:00.002+08:00

everytime when i saw you again. there's always this little tinge of feeling rising back again and that kinda suck. not that i have not moved on but your face ust reminds me of the good times i had in the past even when it was ust for a short while. because that was when i felt so loved and ive not been feeling it for so long already . i miss you.

ps: you played so well :)

2011-11-17T15:48:00.001+08:00

before i get too busy and disappear from this site. i shall just update a little.met my bestfriends last friday!

celebrated hayden's birthday!

the last 5 standing!!! happy birthday hayden !<3

cookie monsters!!

jf photoshop this. mario looks cute right?! hehe

rpdb girls!

and went to amirul's birthday party!

at amirul's 19th birhday party

4 you.

2011-11-11T00:40:00.000+08:00

my bad point. always looking out for a person's perfection that i forgot that nothing is ever made perfect. as much as my mom is perfect in my dad's eyes. at some point of time, she did made my dad go mad. just that one night, when my best friend asked me a question bout you. i realized, im expecting too much. i have too many criteria that the flaws ive seen made me think it is a mistake. i have to kick that aside. if not. i wouldnt find one.

just so you know, i still like you. quite alot. 15 more days to regatta.

on the road.

2011-11-10T22:44:00.003+08:00

HI!! I haven’t had a proper entry of my experience on driving yet right? so yeah I’ve been attending practical lesson and have been enjoying every single session though the first few were nerve wrecking but it was a blast! Even though I was travelling at the speed of a walking man. I did turning and reversing. First, second and third clutch (OH YES I’m taking manual. hehe) drove around the circuit round and round till I got bored of it.

Thank god my instructors were all friendly(except one, whom being extra friendly and shake my hand after a lesson, I find it weird because the others doesn’t but charmaine said maybe it was merely out of courtesy) but fierce sometimes. I think they've got the eyes of an owl, they knew every single move I make, when I drive, I am extremely conscious of how my hands moved. i would look at the steering and not the road. And when I looked at the road, i had the tendency to look at the road beneath my car. then he will go "look far girl. Look far" HAH

then during my third lesson. My Indian instructor said "ok girl, turn left at number 27, we're going on the road" then my first reaction was" huhhh?! so fast, it's only my third lesson" then he replied " so you come here to learn driving on the road or on the circuit" LOL

But heck, I make an excellent driver. (well, almost. not that bad even though I stalled quite a few times. Too kanchiong for a first-timer on the road) I drove like a drunkard. Sometimes swerving into the lanes of others. HAHA. But most of the time I had control of the car. Sometimes he asked me to slow down because I was driving at an outrageous speed of 60km/h, when I didn't even feel any adrenaline rush. must be the leg press I did in the gym, that's why my right foot seems to press on the accelerator too easily. hmmm

So I have another pet peeve. Changing lane just sucks to the max. It's a road discipline for learners to keep on their left lanes at all times. Trust me, the road at the woodlands industrial area just sucks. With so many huge and long vehicles parked on the left lane. So I had to signal right, check blind spot, check front mirror, side mirror before proceeding. And when I was driving at my comfortable pace after exchanging lane, the instructor made me go back to the left lane.... AGAIN so you see me swerving from right to left, left to right.

I kind of getting the hang of it that I am proud to say that I have become a better driver now. HAHA. Now that I’m better, i got frustrated at the pace I was going, so envy of the experienced driver that drove pass me. They made me feel like I’m moving like a snail. Every time I reached 60km/h, he will say " so what is maximum speed on this road" then ill go.. 50... okey..

It was fun, for making a car move from the drivers' seat. i have always been seating on my mom's car seat while holding onto the steering, shifting the gear and pretend i am driving. now i make a car move by myself! If only the lesson rates weren't that ridiculous, 71 bucks for 2 hours, seriously?! I'd be taking lessons everyday.

Hopefully ill get to go through TP by feb! So at least i can have my license before graduating. insyallah. pray for my safety guys and charmaine's too!! she's having her practical too. weehee

xoxo

friends i want to keep forever.

2011-11-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

i have so many things to share but i just dont have the time to update every single day, or not i was just too lazy to spend a bit of my time here after i did my rj and all

but this! got to be shared because last friday was the best time i had after so damn long. Non-training days are the only time i can meet my friends!. thank god there wasnt any ergo test or what so ever. so yeah, initially,it was just going to marsling because narisah wanted to go for threading. Then charmaine texted me asking if i had anything on. so she joined us and narisah decided not to go. we ended up watching 3 musketeers and it was worth it!

its been ages since i last met bazilah. this A level girl gonna seat for her last few major papers next week.May allah bless her always! cant wait for her to end her As so we can meet often like we always do! she joined us for dinner like finally!! despite having lots of eating outlets to dine at cwp, we decided to just head to al-ameen!

i love everything about al-ameen. the waiter is friendly, the food is yummy, the ambience is just nice to chill. it's been quite awhile eversince we get to talk like that. share stories. narisah with her forever fairytale wedding dream(which hopefully will come true one day :D ) charmaine and me with our drivings because this is the most interesting thing that's been happening in our life right now and bazilah.... listening.. and forever making us laugh with her "boyaaa" . thought of having our first holiday trip together when everyone graduates soon next year! i cant wait!

love my girls alot!!!

around 10ish. we went to chill at starbucks. continued with our coversations, laugh and laugh till my stomach hurts.

narisah and bazilah!

charmaine and me!

it was so hard to take a nice pic in the bus because it was moving!!

our 30% of drinks!

they were immitating someone! haha

charmaine was showing me the way i smiled when i was in sec school

so i attempted it.. but they say it's not like that. :(

super ugly smile!

woodlands.

2011-11-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

last thursday.van 's dad fetched us home from trainin. we had such a funny ride because admiralty is quite a foreign area to mr wee. so i helped to lead him the route to mario's and then to SLE(because there is a short cut route to the expressway and he doesn't know. Lol). He was amazed.

You know, ive been in woodlands for centuries. okey maybe not. to be exacty 16 years. Right from when i was still in my pre-school days till now im already ending my tertiary education. Its been 16 long years! How can i not know it well, in fact my mom always drive at that route and now, i get to drive around there as well!

Looking back 16 years ago, woodlands has changed so much. Like the things which wasnt there yet when i was 3, and now im 19, there's too many changes done.

I still remember, the land where evergreen sec is at was just a plain field and when they were in the midst of building it. I told my mom, im going there (because it was right beside my house) but i ended up in adss. haha

And the route that papa always drove me to my religious school, was where rp was still a bare land. And then they started building it up. Told my pa, im going to make it there (not knowing it was the lousiest poly then) and here i am now in rp.

Times flies. I feel like im growing up too fast that things got to slow down a lil.

flashing back at those years. I had the best time of my life in woodlands. I practically grew up here and i feel so attached to this place that it saddens me. knowing the fact that i would leave this place pretty soon since im left with a semester more in RP.

so much of thhe bitter sweet memories. The certain spots i spend most of my time at.tripple 8, causeway point, the hard court behind tripple 8, woodlands mart and many many more.

Now you know how well i know about woodlands right. That every single places is at my fingertips already. I love woodlands so much that i might just buy a house here. Haha kidding.

selamat hari raya haji to all my muslim friends!!!

2011-11-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

omg im freaking out right now. my first pharm chem test laterrr... but whatever, just hoping for the best.
anyway, life's been pretty much fine. met charmaine on monday for a movie. catched on day. like a typical romance show. anne hathaway was gorgeous as always. she pulled off all kind of hairstyles that she had in the show and omg kim sturges is so freaking hot, yumz.

nc16 and there were a few secondary school kids beside us giggling and squealing during the kissing scenes. i wasnt like that last time, was i? hmm cant remmeber. but i was annoyed.

am killing time right now. so i shall share some good pictures. HAHA.

since everyone has someone for themselves. i have marion for myself :)


nazi moo moo's 21st birthday !!!

at the plain for our lunch!

all is well!! i am gonna be fine later

2011-11-01T01:26:00.000+08:00

hihi november.

one more month to december
38 more days to a new phone. HEHE
22 more days to charmaine's birthday
26 more days to regatta. ( my second last race, hopefully)

it's gonna be a hell month for us so i am just hoping that my body will work well with my mind. whatever happens, i will just remain as strong as how i did for a last few months when things got really crazy during the polite season. with trainings that took up so much of my time, fyp reports and evaluation and tests. but still, i made it.

lets go amyyeah!

2011-11-01T01:20:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i wonder how does it feels like fighting for your own happiness. i have yet to find mine, but if i do. ill probably be the happiest girl alive right? just like jamie.

yesterday, she randomly tweeted to me about the jansport bag that i mentioned in my tweet and she says go for it. so obviously, she knew what was going on. and then she said this " sometimes, you just gotta initiate a little for your happiness." hmmmmmm

anyway, jamie is my db senior and i truly admire her courage to go out and initiate things with israel (he's my ex db captain!). at least she knew what she wants and not to stop there when things go wrong,. so you see, jamie is daring enough because she dares to fight for her happiness. but i am not. that's my bad point. truthf,ully, i feel like their relationship is like one of the best ive seen and if they get married one day( which i hope they will) i will be more than happy for jamie because she deserves it. :)

last friday, cherie and zoa were being cheeky and they added my eye candy!! that's like the craziest thing they can do for me! but phewww, he accepted! so being a dreamer like i always do, i was hoping he might just talk to me and say hi.. then i think ahh that wont happen. i might just be one of those few girls that he got a friend request from and then he accepted out of courtesy .. i think? haha.

maybe i should just stop admiring guys i cant have.

i love his voice and im obviously rooting for him in x factor besides melanie , drew and rachel!!
this song. i want to sing this to any of the lucky guy whom took so long to find me!

xoxo.

2011-10-26T05:43:00.001+08:00

HIIIII. it's 5 freaking am and i am still wide awake. deepavali today so that shall explain why i am daring enough to not sleep. ive been spending the whole night watching bollywood movies!! . and yes, i love to watch them and trust me i am a big fan of shah rukh khan! dont you think he's handsome?!! he's like so old but still so charming :)

watching khabi khushi khabi gham now!! belive it or not, i have watched it like more than 10 times but i have never ever get bored of it. hirithik is so freaking hot , how to find a boyfriend like him?!! he got that very perfect smile that will melt many hearts,omg!! and his eyes is so mesmerizing!!

just imagine having a guy to look at you like that. oh my!! even if this was just an act, but still, kareena is so damn lucky to have him for herself in the movie!! jealous!!

my all time favorite!!

this song is just too awesome that you wont realise that your hands will suddenly move and tap to the rythme. lol.

i am going to watch this movie with my future boyfriend. so make sure anybody who secretly likes me and reading this, you must like bollywood movies too ok! HAHAHAH. just kidding!! i know this would be so impossible because seriously, no one will like me, right? HAHA.

i was telling razis that there is no way my eye candy will even take his time to look at me, cos i am just a nobody in any guyz eyes. i am neither pretty nor outstanding in any ways. and even if he knows i secretly likes him, that would be nothing to him right. and razis totally agress with me!! so i guess i am really that unattaractive/ugly. sadded but oh wellz,that's the fact. HAHA

anyway since i am just to free to talk shits here, caught the rugby match with the girls and trust me, the game was too instense but heck rp was the overall champion!! i was practically covering my eyes with marion's slip matt when he tried to score over the pole And keep telling angel that i feel llike crying if they lose. HAHA.

ok bye!! gonna continue watching the movie!!

happy deepavali all!

2011-10-24T15:40:00.001+08:00

had tahlil at my house. and this woman came to have dinner together since she couldnt come for raya!!

im blessed to have her in my life. lets grow old together. our husbands will be goodfriends and your kids will b my kids gdfriend too. teehee.

love u cece!

mad tired.

2011-10-24T15:32:00.001+08:00

it’s drawing near to the end of october, and it just hit me how different life’s gonna be come novemeber. It’s not so much the difference between then and now, though. It’s more how different things will turn out, comparing what’s currently in my head and reality. Cos sometimes I feel my head has a mind of it’s own.

i need a break. wish everything would pause so that i can think calmly of things i have to do without distractions. i cant have so many things happening at once and still, at the end of the day, i have to settle it. i am tired.

school is now redundant and waste of time. mehh. i am getting bored of it and struggling with pharm chem is the biggest issue i have right now. i hate it when i cant cope well. hate it even more when i am the only one that is lost and all i could do was ust to ask instead of contributing some useful ideas to the team. broke down in class last friday and the worst thing of all was that, i had to think of another issue which worries me too.

i bothered myself with many things that sometimes i feel like i dont even have the time to think for myself. i need a freaking life . i really have to stop worrying so much about other people instead of just me.

but whatever, am ust motivated to come school because there is still good friends around, training and my eye candy!! going to watch the rugby polite match later. super pscyche. hehe.

polite reminds me so much of the harsh days my 12 girls and i went through like ermm 3 months ago? when we ran around the stadium to clock the timing that susan wanted. the punishment that we got, hundreds of push up, cried together, push hard till we almost explode. but it was all worth it. i want the hunger and aggression to be back like in those days when all we do was just to train and train till our body well up.

i have like a month more to go... lets make it a good one!

i miss this girls :(

and trust me, this was the best moment of my life.

tired max

2011-10-20T14:44:00.000+08:00

i am very tired. Been getting on average 5 hours of sleep each night and i dont think it is enough for a person like me whom practically complains about how tired i am almost EVERYDAY.

Despite how “paying off your sleep debt” doesnt work, I somehow have to adapt to it. Because there are simply not enough hours on weekdays to accomplish everything i need to. and I cant resort to sleeping in on weekend mornings because i have trainings on both days. now i cant wait for deepavali to come and i really hope JD doesnt want to do training on that day. i need my sleep :( my eye bags is getting worst, if it's not for concealer, i would look horrible!

Sleep is like a temporary escape for me. Because when you sleep, somehow your thoughts are uncontrollable. You dream of things that are extra wonderful and most of the time you dont even remember those dreams by the time you wake up. you are like half dead. your soul are flying everywhere and you forget about your troubles for a little while. shiok right...

anyway, i should be mentally prepared for the harsh days. fyp is giving me a hard time but heck, my eye candy is giving me the source of motivation to come school everyday! hhehehe. and i cant wait for monday!! gonna spend the whole 45 mins of the match looking at him playing. omg now i sound so cheeky.

ok bye!!

2011-10-16T00:35:00.002+08:00

i cant sleep. typing this out using my cheap nokia E71 phone and i cant wait for my birthday to come because im getting my BB soon. i dont have to steal people wireless or depend on wireless.sg for internet when im out cos ill have dataplan and i can access anywhere and anytime i want.. but that's not the point.

so anyway, currently, there's a lot of things that is bugging me right now. i have to sort it out and tell myself what i really want. and besides doing that, i am picturing my future with nice things like having my best friends around me. and there's like a few guys joining the clique because it is time for us to get to know each other better.

then i wonder, what will happen if my bestfriend have a guy for herself even before i do. when i am alone, will she just leave me to walk away of would she tell her boyfriend to give her a moment and walk me off first.. will she think of me and choose to be with me for a little while or would she rather choose to leave me alone and join her boyfriend instead. because if this thing happen to me, i would leave my guy and rather be with my bestfriend because she mean alot more to me.

it is really very hard to understand why do you fall so hard for a guy even at the shortest period of time...it is lesser than a month and you chose him over us. this is really that saddening.

for you.

2011-10-16T00:21:00.001+08:00

If there was only everlasting happiness and not feeling down and no sudden hatred.everyone in this world would be happy. people picture the beautiful things even before it happens, And when things doesn't turned out the way they want it to be, then disappointment comes in.

apart from that, this are just the little things that brought into being disappointed.. there is more to make someone feel that way. for instance, you're expecting something from a person , and when he/she doesn't do it, you'll get mad and then you're disappointed with his/her actions.

i am disappointed when my friend's action doesn't seems to go with what you expected it to be. Is it so nice to be in love that you cant spare a day. i hate clingy girls.you know what, being mad will just tire me out. it is so hard to show my emotions, to show that i am dissapointed and angry, because if i show it, things gonna turn out be real bad. i dont want this to spoil our friendship. so i rather fake up the smile, take a step back, and let you do what you want. cos i cant be bothred anymore. you choose your own happiness and ill try to find mine.

and what i meant by finding my own happiness is definitely not by finding a guy because i lose hope. the spark is slowly fading. i dont really care if i dont see you that often anymore because i am too tired of picturing beautiful things that wont ever happen. it tires me out, really. i just want to be happy but the defination of happy is just too vague that i dont know how to make myself feel that way.

i just googled on how to be happy.. yeah i know, i am that free. one of the point, it says to smile. because science suggests that when you smile, whether you feel happy or not, your mood will be elevated. So smile all the time! but if you're faking a smile on the outside and then inside, you feeling like total shit. then tell me, what is the point of even trying to smile. to show everyone around that you're perfectly fine when you're not. i have to stop pretending already!!

i am really that upset then i dont feel like talking to you.

4 eva dreaming.

2011-10-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

it will be cool when i have my license. ill sneak out in the middle of the night with my mom's car key. drive around to the quietest place while listening to our favorite song and sing along to it. and when we get tired, we'll just stop and watch a movie from my laptop. the though of having someone you really love besides you through the night without doing nothing dirty of course, sounds like a freaking good idea right and something, a girl really want? #iwilldothiswithmyfutureboyfriend

i want to do this too! but sadly, there is nothing like that in Singapore. OH WHY AM I LIVING IN SUCH A BORING COUNTRY :(:(:(

seeing you in awhile!!

2011-10-07T22:55:00.002+08:00

before the lids of my eyes force shut by itself, it is better for me to kill time( since i have done my rj, YES!! School has just started) and blog a little before it gets dead anytime soon.

this is so damn annoying. i have a blocked nose and i cant breathe. using my mouth to both inhale and exhale and it's kind off tiring.. i get sick so damn easily whenever i got caught under the rain. my immune system is so freaking weak, like that. :(

anyway i was perfectly fine on Wednesday, which i had my first driving prac( hehe!) and then met up with my bestfriends because i needed someone to go shopping with. very impromptu cos Charmaine was texting me like around 3 , then we met at 5 and headed to town. weiyi joined us around 6ish after her work and we had a wonderful time at forever 21 trying out quite a few heels. ended my last bit of holiday with a bang!!

when i got home, my body gets quite heaty .Woke up the next day for school, with a really bad sore throat and my head felt so heavy. but i couldn't possibly be skipping lesson on a first day right?

so i went to school and relied on panadol to survive through. 14 more weeks and a day more to GO and i am done with my poly life!!!

3rd BUT still like you.

2011-10-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

i just realised it's the second of another month. three months eversince the 2/7 just passed like that. at some point of time. truthfully i feel like the feeling is fading a little. everyday when i see you, i am always expecting something good from you. but when you dissapoint me with the little things you do. it holds me back for a second and at that moment, somehow it got me thinking whether, should i really like you still or not.

it will be good to go back to those days when i look forward to see u on the weekends. now it's returning back to the same old thing. school's starting and you're on attachment. hope the feeling grows back as how it is cuz somehow deep down, i know, i still quite like you . my heart still pumps like a choo choo train whenever ure near me u know. HAHA

a month more to regatta. a month more to not see you till forever. haizzzzz.


it's really very rare of me to take a pic of myself. but i quite like this pic! HEHE

So happy like that.

2011-10-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

sadly my holidays are ending pretty soon and i barely had any fun. but that Wednesday night that has just passed was one of the fun time i had after so damn long!! Ishqal got his car so he decided to drive!! and he fetched me straight from my house and we went to the bedok cash studio to karaoke. i feel like a really grown up now. HAHA. the thought of having my friend to drive and never take the public transport for the whole day sounds awesome right!! now like that, im so determined to start on my practicals already!!

we karaoke for like about 3 hours+ and most of the time, ishqal had the mic to himself cos he prioritized his fav songs! haha. so knowing that there's such a thing called the priorities button, me and narisah did the same thing too! we sang our all time fav karoke song. bunga-bunga cinta, layu di pusara~
and thanks to the guys whom keep singing to the jiwangs songs. i got addicted to them! especially to this one:

had our dinner at simpang bedok and i had the worst time ever. you know how badly i hate cats and how freaked out i can get by just looking at them. The freaking place was infested with LOTS!! of them and i didn't had any peace eating. ive got no choice but to just leave them and keep myself safe at the shop and save. so freaking embarrassed :/ i felt really bad because the whole time when i screamed, EVERYONE around were staring at us. -.- ! oh and haikal joined us there.

we were brainstorming of places to go. and upper thomson rd is then decided. that ulu place which was where my mom's kampong was at. and the route that ishqal drive was where my grandpa used to have his bicycle races! so the whole time, it was only ishqal's car and haikal's motorbike on that deserted route. quite scary but FUN!!

then he send me home. cos i had training the next day. and i wonder when is the next time i can have this kind of fun!! back to the same old routine.

eh he sings not bad! espesially those rock genre songs!

amirul and nizam the funny boy!

my minah <3

nizam tried this maniture usin my camera!! see the behind effect. quite cool har.

that thingy just nice block ishqal's face. lol

2011-09-20T00:48:00.002+08:00

i feel like my life is going on too fast that sometimes i cant keep up with the things that is going in with my life. the little things which i have to take note of, things which i need to keep undated on. just last week, i spend the whole 7 days out of home and i realised i didnt talked alot to my ma, pa and my brothers.what's more meeting up with my bestfriends. i miss my simple life where it just revolves around my favourite girlS and the thing i had to worry was only not see-ing charmaine next to me in class or not having bazilah to walk home to admiralty with.

we're growing up too fast dont you think so? The things i have to worry has changed drastically, from the not so important things in life to the most vulnerable decisions i have to make for my future. many perspective in life haS changed too. nothing stays the same and i realised the random topics me and charmaine talked about when we meet has changed 360 degrees too! HAHAH

A few weeks ago, had an impromptu meet up with charmaine. YES I love random meet up though it's for a short while. but at least, i get to meet her!! had been craving for the rochor rd beancurd eversince the fasting month and had it with her. then we talked about some random topic which i dont expect her to talk about cos we dont really share things like that. HAHA. but nevermind, i dont think it's weird for us to talk about guys at the age of nineteen. how worried we are not having anyone to go after us OR not having that special guy for ourselves. HAHA. there must be something wrong if no one is going after her cos truthfully i find my bestfriend damn pretty(hehe! i even showed off how pretty she is to kinmun and he said, not bad! ) but if no one is going after me, that's understandable lar.

cmmon you got to agree with me! pretty right . HEHE. sorry cece, stole it from your blog.

you know the fear of staying single all our life. not having someone to go after or for my case, not being able to spill out my feelings for someone whom i have been stealing glances for months! and the sad thing is that, i dont even know if he will ever know cos we have one more month left... someone whom i least expected to fall for. i must be damn dumb to act like as if i dont care of your presence but i do, how fast my heartbeat pumps just like an army's marching through my chest whenever you're near me, how crazy i am when i kept thinking of you day and night. and why am i still holding to something which i dont know if it will ever happen? hmphh

one day, we get one for ourselves!!. and we would go for trio date because bazilah will definitely get a boyfriend too. our boyfriends will become good friends just like us. HEHEH

MY FOREVER BESTFRIEND <3

db chalet!

2011-09-19T23:25:00.002+08:00

simple pleasures in life. just like the smiles pasted on our faces on a Tuesday night when we had our db chalet with the newly year 1. okey, actually not that new. it's been 4 months since they're in db .Jd wanted this chalet to bond us. but we ended up seating in groups, talking more about the past stories, sharing our thoughts, gossip together with my girls and ridduan. that's the best thing about chalet!! haha. Didn't stayed over cuz i had fyp the next day.

anyway, time flies. seems like Ive just attended the year 1 bbq to bond with my seniors. i remembered it rained damn heavily and we were so drenched cos even when we squeezed under the hut, the rain kept coming in. had little fun cos it was damn awkward. haha and now im a year 3, and the juniors were supposed to bond with us. HAHA. maybe they would have the same feeling like i do 2 years back uh.

two important people in my life! my bestfriend and my sibling!! :)

vivi snapped this!!

marion!

vivi!

van wasnt fast enough to squeeze in through in time to snap this. HAHA!

LOVE this pic!!

HAHA look at van! forever priceless face!

nazi, mario and van <3

little girl PUTRI!!

the junior girls :)

JIA YI! forever calling me ah ma.

three chio girls on top. HAHA

So the fun is over. a promising 2 weeks of hell training from JD. time to train hard again :)

hi lab w53f we meet again.

2011-09-15T19:44:00.000+08:00

HII!!! guess what, im back in the school lab. having to go through the extrusion and spheronization of the pellets once again. facing the extruder rollers went round and round. smelling the stinky fish oil.sigh, such life! Now it's freaking 7.36pm and ive not eaten my lunch and dinner. my stomach, power or what?!

miss having kin mun here. at least i have someone to disturb and gossip with about db. :( but whatever, the four of us are just gonna focus and end this shit early, hopefully even before the school starts!

damn retarded, there were visitors. so the lab tech asked us to wear the goggle and the mask.

my minmin <3

my last sava sprint

2011-09-13T01:28:00.000+08:00

it's really sad to be a year 3. suddenly you feel like whatever you do, it's like going to be the end of everything soon. i had my second last race 2 days ago. it was one of the best memories i would always want to remember whenever i look back at the medals i have. seeing my other 12 girls and myself, going through hell lots of things together. right from the polite season when susan pushed us hard and we collapsed, crying out of fear whenever we didnt hit the target and now, to see the achievement that we had. i am really proud of each and everyone of us. i can never describe how greatful i am to have these girls, but i really thank god for sending to me 12 lovable girls that made my life merrier each day.

those two days were really hard. tertiary was against the big Uni teams. Opens were even tougher, having to face the Nteam girls and the other strong oppponents. from rapid charge to qualify through semis. we then made our way straight to grand finals after semis, facing the Nteam girls again for the second time with Ntu. i have always been scared of Ntu and i dont know why. haha. there was just this burning desire that we shared, the feeling in the boat , nobody can ever know. very happy and humbled with our achievement on both days.

i love you girls. a whole lot <3 lets continue to train hard together!!

my cookie monsters

believe it or not, we shared the first position with Ntu.

opens :)

bored monday..

2011-09-05T18:04:00.000+08:00


i woke up from sleep at 10. i toss and turn.

on my laptop. till it gets overheated.

washed and cleaned up my fish's house.

white curtains.

wiped the cardboard.


then , cleaned the house..

so this is what i did the whole day. anyway, loveee my new cam. all the pics weren't edited! it's from the cam itself. cool right? teeheee.BYE!

2011-09-05T03:38:00.003+08:00

Yearning for the day I can finally fling myself onto my bed, hair pulled back and in a ultra large T-shirt. sleeping without the alarm interrupting the beauty sleep, and waking up to glorious morning. Tossing and Turning while fiddling with my hp. Checking out tweets. Then I'll pull myself up to brush my teeth. have my hot cup of milo. maybe bread with nutella. yumz.

the day is here. no training later. life's good. :)

anyway, ive been wanting to post up a few nice pictures. 3 freaking am and i cant sleep so ill just kill time and update a lil bit of things here.

i know exams had ended for quite sometime. the day of the last UT was the hardest. but whatever, headed down to somerset's fish & co to break fast with my favorite girls. it's been awhile ever since we went out and have somee fun together. The dinner was secretly planned by Cherie to surprise min's advance and rach's belated birthday. so we decided to just settle down with a cake from the icing room, my first attempt of decorating was not bad.. lucky to have cherie around. if not,the cake would turned out as a major failure!

the two chantek girls. without us, no cake lei.

not bad right ;P

cherie decorated this part, not bad har ;D

so while decorating this cute cake, min had been constantly contacting us to hurry cos we made them wait for 45 minutes. she even had that wild thoughts that cherie and i went to shop for clothes cuz we're forever late ah..ha ha ha haaaaa. the foods was not that bad though. we could have went to other better places if it wasnt for me, being the only halal girl. anyway, we were talking about our future plans, and realised, it's been quite a journey together. from being classmates in year 1, these few are the ones whom i still keep in touch with. and it's so sad to know we're only left with a sem more in rp. but we're planning to head to the same route .so please!! god, bless us for the whole of next sem!! let us pass!!

min's 19.95 meal.

rach's muak pasta

mine came in with the wrapping paper! not that bad.

cherie's dory fish.

and our drinks. had two of this. didnt like how sweet the mango tasted like. and this mug is damn huge!

even, with the only 4 of us. we still reached 100+ as per normal.

love how min dress up herself here :) no more paddington :P

after which, we went around to find the secret place which ive been wanting to go. suprise them both. run around finding lighter, singing birthday songs in all 3 languges. fed each other the fruit cake. continue talking and giggling and talking and giggling. THEN WE CAMWHORED THE WHOLE NIGHT TILL 11+

So glad they were surprised! love these two girls lots! x.x

amyyeah, amy, amirah, abulu's daughter.

rach and cherie :)

i think i took the most individual shots with min that night. haha

self timer!! i was jumping off from the staircase, ran just in time, and shouted like a mad girl before this pic being snapped! haha

feel so tall standing beside rach. heh!

thank god for my long hands. haaa

moi lover.

another one with min! told you, i took the most with her!

self timer again. this was the nicest shot! but cherie's L terbalek la. :(

love this !!

till the next one. seee ya!

read-dyyy

2011-09-02T23:41:00.001+08:00

second of each month reminds me so much of the day when i see the fragile side of yours which caught my eyes.

ABOUT YOU!!! SO how now?

2011-09-02T23:23:00.001+08:00

not to late to say

and selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all my muslim friends. had an emotional syawal this year. cant describe how miserable the feeling is to leave ramadhan. worried that the world might just end anytime soon. maaf zahir dan batin

A complicated word.

2011-08-24T10:01:00.002+08:00

the way ron looks at hermione.

i wish someday, he would look at me , the same way too

love is an ouch and as much as it hurts. one day, everyone will have to go through on their own.it's a process of knowing and learning how it works. the little things that can make you cry a bucket, roll on the floor and cuddle yourself on the bed. it is such a simple word but so complicated in alot of ways.

love, it's like going through trial and error. some may find one perfect guy during their first. while alot others doesnt.break ups are like the painful trials that we have to through before getting the right answer/the right guy?
so anyway, since good things comes to those who wait.
im very sure, we will get one very nice guy if we're willing to wait right?

many fishes in the sea my dear friend. stay strong cuz i know you will though deep down it still hurts.

♥

at the moment, exams are going on.sighhh. i miss you. i miss stealing glances at you. gonna get my life back on friday. cant wait!

oh and yes, happy birthday to my little brother amsyar. cant wait for the mini celebration later on :) im cooking!!!!

2011-08-20T09:44:00.000+08:00

fell in love with her beautiful voice.

2011-08-18T18:17:00.001+08:00

the day doesn't turn out as lovely as it seems to be. i am getting tired of wanting to go after something which i don't know if ill ever get. i acted like i don't give a damn in front of you but at your back, i was stealing chances of seeing you. the days when i can do that are numbered now. we're coming to the end of our db journey very soon :(

super woman

2011-08-18T06:48:00.001+08:00

i am so incredibly proud of myself for the past 18 days since the fasting month has started. not that i find it so hard to fast, well i personally feel its not that bad. but to fast during training is hell one of the most challenging thing ever. my water bottle would be at least half finished by the time we did our warm up run and emptied at the end of the first phase and now imagine how bad it is not being able to drink! i swear i almost died off. but to come to think of it, ive did it for the past 3 years. this year is my last. ive been a very strong girl even without realising.

dont you think i deserve something nice for myself? lol. .

today shall be a lovely lovely day. i wish the time can pass a little slower today becoz' we would all be having a very long break for exams and no training for like 14 days after today. thats like so freaking long. cant meet the girls as often, cant see you that much too. but ohwellz, my coach always say we come rp not for dip in Dragon boating. haha

sometimes, whenever i think about the future, it includes you for some apparent reasons, and that's my favourite part. but, i find it funny how i wish it can somehow come true but on the other hand,you dont know my heart at all .And now i remembered the only time i had a bf before (dont think i should consider this as one?! haha) was becaue my bestfriend told that guy that i LIKED him. that was so monkey love la, very dumb but tickles me everytime i thought about it.

the radio is playing hari raya songs already! got to get ready for training .van and i gonna be early today!

My little prayer

2011-08-14T17:47:00.001+08:00

Do you know what do i always ask for in my prayers?

Is to give me more strength in every little challenges that i have to face
To lessen the burden of my parents and to give them ease in whatever they are doing
To give me and my family a chance to live on longer
To keep my family and friends safe from any misfortune
To give my family more happiness
To Keep me on the right path
To turn me into a better muslimah
To let me excell in my studies
To always give my team mates and i the strength to overcome each harsh training with a strong mind
To let you know that i like you
To hope in return you will open up your heart for me
To make u a better muslim as well
And to keep your family safe as much as i want my family to be too

Happy fasting to all my muslim friends. We are almost coming to the end of our 14th day of ramadan. Selamat berbuka! I guess im just having drinks. Damn thirsty :(
Byeee!!!

good life, good life.

2011-08-11T14:23:00.000+08:00

first and foremost, good things should be shared here. im having the peaks in my life right now. been spending time with my friends! meeting up those ive not met in ages.

breakfast with two groups of cliques , of course on two different days. one of the perfect evenings i had that i wish time would stop was on a recent late saturday, dinner at rubinah with my eps friends. just like last year, we did the same old routine. after planning aimlessly, from movies to lower seletar to nizam's house, we finally made our way to waterfront again for the second time just like last year. while munching onto snacks and whatever food they bought from giant ,blasting music from nizam's mini-15 bucks- speaker. we talked and laughed about anything under the moonlight~ and finally played a game which nizam intro. so fun! . i didnt want it to end too soon. At 10-ish, made our way out from the waterfront , walked through the "forest" at admiralty park, with no lights to depend on, and it was so freaking dark then finally out from the place and i cabbed home!

so two days back was the singapore's birthday. oh we have turned 46 ! just like any other years, watched the fireworks with the usual cliques and this year, we had the same thing again at the same spot. hehe its like a tradition uh. Had a mini-picnic with pizza and snacks while waiting for the fireworks. break fast in the middle of a huge crowd.

my best friends!!

chili, winnie, stin and yj!

played card games since we reached quite early to get the nicest spot. while talking, we found out that CHILI IS ATTACHED! omg such a good news right. waiting for charmaine to open up her heart for stin. opss :/ and winnie, to find a cute girl from the club or anywhere. ahhh, all of us are really grown ups now. i bet in a few years to come, we can have our meetups with our bf/gf. HEHE . so excited! that is if i find myself a boyfriend. haha

so the fireworks were like directly infront of us. like we're watching a 3D movie.

head down to clarke que to find edric since he's working. so while waiting for him, we seat in and i swear the scenery was damn nice cos we were like seating next to the river.

yes, been having a very simple and casual night like this and i love each and every session of it. it was nice to have the closest friend you're ever have with you even for a short period of time. shared so much laughters in a night and i didnt want it to end :(:(

so i guess my life has got spized up a little since i have something to look upon each day. love my weekends, cuz ive got to see you. and love 8/8 cos that was the first proper convo we had. heh heh heh.

bye my meeting 3 is starting in a while. the last CGMP lesson !!! yessaaa

Read one.

2011-08-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

the feeling I'm feeling right now have kind taken me by surprise
i honestly didn't see this coming,
this me and you,
but i can tell you, from the bottom of my heart,
i am so happy that it came

so glad 2/7 happened that way.

2011-08-04T14:09:00.000+08:00

it took me 2 and a half year to realise that the guy that i like is just near me but i didnt took notice , until at one point of time, that attraction aroused so suddenly . and i think, i quite like you alot now. hmm. but sadly, i am not daring enough to spill out my feelings.

ir leiakde du oaolnoet

i bet vanessa gonna laugh when she read this. HI VAN! :)

2011-08-04T12:32:00.001+08:00

Bear with me, so much to say about the last few weeks. No idea where to start. Everything's still in quite a mess in my brain. I mean, things have been swell for the most part, all the deadlines are over. But there's just so many stuffs that i have to think about, my grades, the problems both my parents and i had to face.

but to hell with that, fyp part 1 has ended. The constant nagging fear of work not done at the back of my head is no more . it's wednesday, used to have long lab sessions for fyp, and today, i just woke up!! i havent felt relaxed in a long while :)

i am truly blessed to have the 4 of them as my team mate. bringing kin mun into the team when at the start, he was just a stranger to my other 3 good friends... and now we can just joke about anything. we went through a hell lot together. we were the most hardworking team ,always the first to reach the lab and the last to leave!!

i will miss so many things about us. the constant complains of how bad the fish oil stinks, the cranky times when we had to wait for the extruder to extrude as much pellets with our empty stomach , our random topics that we talked about during lunch time . The never ending cursing because we were just too mad with the SEG team. the too much extra wet mass of pellets then we wanted to waste it by making pellet balls. The super random, singging session when minmin started to on her songs and we just sang along.

OH and there's this one particular time when zoa wanted to push down more wet masses into the extruder and then the spatula got stucked in the hole! even with kin mun strength, he couldnt pull out the spatula out.. we knew we were in deep shit especially when we saw randy (the lab tech ) came in. but somehow, cherie distracted him with some questions that stops him somwhere far from the machine and the 4 of us tried all ways to pull it out, which at last km decided to break that spatula into two. my team has so much drama but this was one of the most epic we had!

then we got more closser after we spend most of the time chiong-ing our reports and logbooks together. we went out as early as 8.30 to have our breakfast at rochor road together..

this was during one of the most latest lunch we had at a coffee shop near sunshine plaza at 5 freaking pm. i tell you, my team mates can really endure empty stomach.

kin mun, being the apek of the team. -.-

then we suffered together, doing our logbook till wee hours at SMU.

this was the last late dinner we had at cwp banquet. we even partialled together and did our logbook till we got thrown out from the lib at 9pm.

and the smiles after 30th july :)

the paper which km was holding was signatures of all the assesors!

& my team :)

so this is currently the best team i ever worked with :)

truhfully, ill miss this apek alot! no more gossiping about db during fyp. no more disturbing each other abt yck and yishun. no more laughing at his silliness :(

then we went to hot tomato for our last lunch with apek moon.

we had chwey juniour. omg. feel like having one now !!

at the end of the day, everyone k-oed at home. we had to repay back our sleeping debts cos we had too much of it. sleepless nigh for the past few weeks, preparing our presentations and completing the logbook.

it all ended well for us :) thank god for the tortourous but yet a wonderful 6 months of fish oil with this 4 awesome people. couldnt ask for more but a smooth presentations which i personally felt, we did great. may god bless us for part 2 :) amin!

2011-07-26T16:02:00.001+08:00

How do i tell you, that i like you?

my victory

2011-07-16T13:08:00.000+08:00

omg i cannot describe how amazing the feeling was to cross over the finishing line first. but yes! .The feeling of victory, satisfastion, relief , happiness all at once. That 2 minutes+ of our life which we had waited for months. The 500m mark on the battling field, competing with the other paddlers, the 10 of us paddled our hearts out, ame drumed like she never did, van constantly shouting to us " pull one boat". marion waiting patiently and eagerly + being extemely nervous for our return. WE DID IT!! this good news might be old by now, people might just forgot that we're champions but i just have to pen it down here. ive been really busy that i dont get a chance to seat down for a moment to share my glory. so here i am :)

right from the start, when susan called us out to warm up, to cuddle in circle, to say a little prayer, to do our most hearty cheer, to get a tap on my back from my coach. all those moments will stay on my mind forever. second july would be the second fav date for me. the tears of joy, crying like a baby in the boat cos we were too shocked . ahhhhhh.. i must have looked super ugly when i cry :(

we were so damn prepared. it was never like any other sets we did.. for the 1 minute+, it was so peaceful. damn composed. everyone were so quiet and just paddled. and went extremely crazy for charging.. to the end. then when van shouted, eassssyyy... tears of joy :)

i am so proud of my 12 girls and myself of course :P wherever i go, i can never find any other that can ever replace them. theyre the best in my eyes. we worked too hard. we build it up slowly coming up together as one. too many words from others triggered us. we took it in, swallow it hard and now, we totally prove it to others that we can. just too happy and humbled for what we have achieved.

i love you girls :)

and to my three lovely girls whom turned up to support me. your presence really meant alot to me :)

love u love u love u!

and look what we found at one of the siwf poster....

...............

.....

miss having van beside me :)

2011-07-14T08:31:00.001+08:00

because it was worth our sacrifice, our tears, our endurance to be what we are now girls.

till now, when i think back of the time when we reached the finishing line, infront of others.

i just smiled to myself.. because it was really worth it

when we believe, and set a goal together. nothing can shake us

so now, did we really shut the other's ? hmphh

ill blog real soon. like really soon. im seeing the sunshine after the stormy days. everything seems right this days, can never ask for more but just to thank god for giving me the strength to pull through those harsh days. report is done and that itself made me feel like 10kg of weight off my shoulders. no more pressure, polite and sdbf is over, we did well. im really having the best time of my life now :) + a major crush on Mr Aries. haha!

will be back soon! still, UT is not done YET!

back for a short while.. so hi!

2011-06-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

so i am down with fever. at this phase of my life, i only wish to stay healthy and fit, ever ready to go down with full bar of energy and then my immune system gets weak all of a sudden.. why now? i need to get well very soon! :(
lost my voice during training, phlegm that refused to cooperate, sticking on my poor throat. AND NO JOKE AH, MY MENSTRUAL CRAMP LAST WARNING PLEASE. all come at once. i think Ive lost a kg.. which is good cos i need to lose weight, but on the other hand, it seems quite bad cos i look so gaunt it's reminiscent of a prisoner of war. got an MC for today and tomorrow. so should i skip tomorrow? and rest up more for Saturday? hmmphhh

now, snuggled up in my comfy bed, hot Milo on the side, blogging through my phone seems to be the best option i had in mind to kill time because I'm waiting for myself to get drowsy and then sleep!

tough and rough days. same thing that Ive been complaining about since year 3 had started. fyp. we're coming to the end now.. starting up on my report but.. the mind is still on polite. which hence explain the no progression at all for my report. sigh.

i realised i get really pissed so easily now days. i tend to throw tantrums at home.. i have zero control over my mood. i hate to use vulgarities but i just cant help it. that's like the only way i could vent out my anger.. many times Ive been complaining about this bitchy classmate of mine whom i hated so much and the SEG team that continuously giving my team problems. OH guess what, we stayed in the lab for 10 freaking hours just to complete 16 batches of pellets! in the end, they decided not to use our data. naiseeee. i got so pissed that i broke down.. lucky to have my db girls.. if not.. i think ill just climb to the highest building and jump down.

and one of those days when i feel like punching that bastard face.. so glad narisah was there listening to me ranting. thank god for a rly good friend.seriously i just wasted 1/4 of my sec sch life getting depressed and emotionally unstable thinking and waiting crazily over a guy whom i wish i ddint know. at that point of time, i just felt like deleting him off my fb list. but oh wellz, i didnt at last.

oooo i just got a call from my db girls asking if I'm fine. so sweet of them ♥ we will shut the mouth of people whom had no hopes on us. cos i believe we can. we will sweep it all this weekend. with the guys as well. we will make JD proud. i wish for the day, ill get my medal form my coach's hand. i will make that happen!! i swear i will

ill see the bright sunshine after the stormy days. i am pretty sure of that. stay strong amirah, stay strong!

2011-06-14T22:10:00.001+08:00

today is sucha lazy day. eye infection after 4 months AGAIN but now different eye. skipped school+ gym training. stucked in my room since morning, watching korean drama instead of doing my report. urgh . im a last minute person as always.

ohh and i had a not so serious conversation about love, marriage with yh just now.

he thinks it would be better to have a long term relationship before tying knot but i beg to differ.
as what my horoscope explains about me, i plan a whole lot for my future. i want to get married when im 26. that leaves me like approximately 6 years to play around(THIS SOUNDS SO WRONG) and 1 year to be in a stable relationship.

i dont think there's a need to actually know your partner that well. maybe,you just have to know their character, not lazy, gentleman, hardworking, stable with good kechings, love me, NEVER SMOKES, not sensitive.. im fine with it. i can find out about all this in 365 days. if he's bored with me, he would have left me hangging by the third month coz apparrently that's when the honeymoon period is OVER.

give me , 275 days to know in and out of him(that is if he still sticks to me after the honeymoon period) and spend the rest of my lifetime knowing more about him, observing his habits, what he do in the morning, what he like and what he dont, does he sleepwalk, does he talk in his sleep, does he drools while sleeping.

And then in that 275 days we plan a simple wedding. just for a simple jolly affair. sounds good? a good day where we would remember for a lifetime.i wont be planning to spend a bomb , i rather spend it going to really nice places for my honeymoon. ride on horses, take the hot air balloon, parachutes!!! sleep in the under water world where fishes swims pass us. we stare at them, they stare back at us. cool right?

so in my marriage life, i wouldnt be spending my time doing all the daily routines, becoming the maria of the house(well im not planning to get a maid either, they will spoil my things!) but ill spend my time knowing more bout him too!

i dont find a need to get engage. that's like too old fashion but some people still practice them. if you know that person is for you. you dont have to CHOP STAMP ON THAT PERSON FOREHEAD AND SAYS HE'S MINE , DONT TOUCH HIM" but still ,there are poeple whom broke off their engagement. so whats the point?

so the whole point is, i dont really need a long term relationship that last for alot of years then i get married right?

sorry. DPDP. if u agree, then good. if you dont. your prob lor. heh!

came across this website somewhere : TEN REASONS WHY BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP SUCKS.
COOL SHITZ!

cerita dah basi, glitz night !

2011-06-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

the girls and myself were quite psyched about glitz. it seems like another prom for us, okey not another for me, but for the others. so weeks before the day itself, everyone were like. omg what dress to wear, what heels matches, what hairstyle to do, normal for girls. so excited for the event since most of us are going up the stage to get an award and not expecting ourselves to get up on it for the second time because WE FREAKING WON THE TEAM'S OF THE YEAR AWARD.. SAYYY WHART?!!! lolz

proud of each and everyone of us. team of the year wouldn't be in our hands if hard work, team spirit and commitments inst alive in each of us. After all, having it means we have the qualities to be selected to be the best team in rp. yay!

we faced too many harsh trainings. sometimes when i look back at those times when i was treated like a guy, going through all sorts of punishments, hearing the most hatred phrase in my whole life " push up change!" and when we did too many push ups.another phrase came in "never echo back to zero" and we had to start all over again. that was shit training with my batch of girls and guys. haha

the never ending long distance training, many sets that made our body sore till we went crazy. carrying the killer weights in the gym.run and run and run. i had no freaking idea how i managed to stay on till now. im in year 3. Ive endured 2+ year, half more to go. but never did i regret joining DB because i had a whole lot of wonderful and unforgettable experience.

ok back to the glitz night.

felt so great to see all the girls dressing up and some of them do stands out. from our ugly training geers to pretty dresses.

for these girls i stayed on

and then this group of girls came in and made my db life more colorful

yasser felt good that he can see us looking attractive once in awhile. haha. the new rpdb captain. :)

the last 5 standing year 3 girls. the batch of girls i went through shits with :) and when we talk about it now, we went , ahhhh this group of new kids are lucky batch.

so apparently, this was suppose to be the NAVY group. look at our dresses! hehe

we are the SAS people!!

LOL AT VAN! always with her funny expressions.

susan always say these are my 3 cantek malay girls. HEHEHE.

with the annoying self claim pro coxswain, ridduan.

my awesome partner <3

van's epic expression

and again....

the whole ceremony took around 2 hours. 3/4 of which i spent clapping hands for the people whom i dont know who, waiting anxiously for two most important awards which includes kin mun's captain of the year category .WOAHHH.

so at the back stage, i was nervous and i don't know why? not that i was going to perform or something. but walking on the stage in front of the crowds was quite scary. i was worried if i fell down with my heels(trust me im bad in it ), wouldn't it be so embarrassing. so i walked damn fast. the G.O.H talked so politely, whispering " congrats" then im like.. ohh thanks!! keep bowing to him (like korean style ah hahha!) snap a pic and quickly get my ass off the stage and phewww! OVER.

and i swear, the part when they start to announce the winners for different categories, only god knows how fast our heart pumps, it felt like as if it can explode anytime soon! Just like when we're going down for a set, the adrenaline rush ! WOAH. we were holding hands tightly while shaking our legs. Then Amelia says, if we win, we'll throw up our certificates which we ended up didn't.

so we won :)

& so did kin mun :) so proud of him. captain of the year, my fyp team mate. HEHE. his speech was the funniest, of all the motivating words he gave to us all this while, we remembered just this funny sentences he said in his speech. " i need your cooperation, please , listen listen, thank you, so this award goes not only to myself but also to all captains whom had been putting in the extra efforts....blahblahlah". everyone were so noisy but when he said this, the whole crowd really shut up and listened.

ah maoo!!!!! <3

amelia's , susan's , hayden's , jie fang's and my trophies and certificates ^^ worth the wait:)

2k, 2k, 2k. like win some lucky draw ahh. shiok~

dragon boat women carved in that small circle :):) with my happy partner.

\m/

HAHA AIFAA!

HAYDENNN :):)

teehee. captain of the year !!!

Check out my pretty sibling. so according to lek's nintendo ds some funny application measures the similarity between marion and my face. we're 99% similar hence that shall explains why im always calling her sibling.

vanthewee with her fav boy's certificate. HEHE

the limited edition right side paddlers :P hehehe!

and the left paddlers :):)

this girl can look damn good in dress right?! thanks to marion and the rest for pestering her to wear one and she finally did. everyone were so damn happy to see her in it with her pretty long legs!

with pretty ah mao :)

and to end the photo spams, here's the last. my bestfriend vaness-ah! :) LIKE MY SISTER, my listening ear and everything <3

so the dress i wore wasnt the one i bought, im so fickle minded having to choose what to wear and all right ?!.this dress had been in my ward drobe for idk how many months ah. HEHE

i can picture myself with an annoyed wedding planner in the future lor. SIGH.

k byebye

2011-05-31T12:07:00.000+08:00

MAMPOS thursday glitz night. and ive yet to find a decent dress to wear.
dont know what shoes to wear, what bag to bring.
at this kind of time, i wish i was a guy instead. LOL